It's standard in our public school curriculum to learn about the Holocaust in the 8th grade. I was 13 the first time I laid eyes on photographs of emaciated camp prisoners and piles upon piles of dead bodies. It was horrific. My 13-year-old self was incapable of understanding it all. The ghettos, the brutality, the camps, the starvation, the torture, the gas chambers... all because of one asshole's vision for a perfect race? My 30-year-old self is still incapable of understanding. And the fact that this all happened during a time my grandparents lived through blows my mind. (And without getting too political, I would like to say we've learned our lesson, but it appears that we haven't. Ghettos, starvation, torture and even genocides are still taking place all over the world.)
During my teenage years I would watch movies like Escape from Sobibor, Schindler's List, and Life Is Beautiful - these movies did a really amazing job of making it real for me. They brought to life, with motion and emotion, the kinds of things I had only read about in text books up until that point. They also always left me in a sobbing pile of tears even hours after the credits had rolled.
So with that - I never imagined I would be given the opportunity to actually visit the places where these horrific acts took place. But then I was. I'll admit that I was a little hesitant to go to Auschwitz. It just seemed to sad. To full of bad energy that I wasn't sure I wanted to partake in on my vacation. But we were going to be right there. We couldn't not go.
We meant to head out early in the morning but wound up sleeping in until about 10AM. We got dressed and headed down to the hotel restaurant for breakfast. I ordered my first of many cappuccinos and an "omelet with jam" - which wound up being a crepe. We asked our giggly front-desk gal how to get to the town of Oświęcim (which the Germans renamed Auschwitz). She kindly printed off a bus schedule and told us our next bus would leave at 1:15PM. So after walking down to a bus station and carefully inspecting about a dozen or so bus schedules and signs we finally found the right place. We waited in a park for an hour or so for our unmarked, white van to show up and take us to Auschwitz. For the equivalent of about $3 each we took the hour long ride to one of the most historically-relevant towns in the world.
Waiting in the park - brushing up on some Polish and admiring the excessive base to that statue.
The bus let us off in a park and the driver, in a very thick Polish accent, told us to walk about a mile South to the museum - formerly the camps. So we started walking through residential areas and down a road that made me feel like I was in the middle of nowhere. There were no signs but I trusted Jeremy's sense of direction until finally we reached a busy street and saw signage for "museum parking". When we walked up to the camp I was expecting something a solemn scene of tourists shedding quiet tears - but instead I was greeted with hundreds of loud, shitty, pimply-faced teenagers chugging soda and screaming and shoving and making out with each other. We checked our backpack, bought tickets for admission and found our way to the English speaking tour group.
We started at Auschwitz 1. This is the main camp. There were 16 cell blocks - I was surprised by how small the camp seemed. Each building had been converted into a museum of sorts. While the imagery and artifacts available were incredibly powerful, I was surprised by how stripped down the exhibits were - I suppose to manage the thousands of tourists going through the camp every day. Here's a sampling of what we saw at Auschwitz 1:
After touring the main camp we took a bus down the street a bit to Auschwitz-Birkenau (also knowns as Auschwitz II). Coming up to the gate, which you might recognize from Schindler's List, was intense. The railroad tracks. The barracks. Auschwitz-Birkenau was much more "day in the life" and our tour guide detailed the struggles with simply going to the bathroom. It was intense.
As we were about to go deeper in to the camp thunder started rolling in and the sky became dark. Our tour guide recommended we head back - so we took a shuttle to Auschwitz I and grabbed our checked backpack. We quickly began our walk back to our bus stop (which was due to pick us up in about an hour and a half for the last trip back to Katowice for the day). I suggest we go around the camp on the opposite side we came in on. We walked by a huge crucifix and what I think used to be the house of one of the former Nazi generals. Right about then was when it started sprinkling. I dug a raincoat out of our backpack. And with that came the loudest clap lightning and thunder I've ever heard in my life along with a torrential downpour. Jeremy and I started running as fast as we could - with the camp and barbed wire to our left and a road with woods to our right. We ran for about 5 minutes straight and all I could think was how surreal it was that I was in the middle of a thunderstorm running from Auschwitz. We gave up and walked to the nearest bus stop for shelter.
As soon as the rain let up a bit we made a mad dash about 200 yards to our bus stop. 30 minutes later the rain completely stopped - we could only laugh about it as we emptied water out of our shoes and waited for our bus.
When we finally got back to our hotel we realized that we hadn't eaten since breakfast. So over a large greasy pizza and a couple of cold beers we decided where to go next: Vienna.
These images almost made me cry. The Holocaust was in our grade 8 curriculum as well but I had learned about it before then. I've always been fascinated (although I'm not sure "fascinated" is the right word) because it's so hard to imagine that humans could do that to other humans. And yet -- as you said, it still happens. Heartbreaking.
ReplyDeleteWhat an emotional and humbling experience that must have been. I love the honesty in your posts, especially your travel posts. Looking forward to more.
ReplyDeleteI too am completely flabbergasted as to how human beings could commit such atrocities. I'm so interested in the stories of the Holocaust and read book after book just trying to understand. Someday I hope to go to Auschwitz - while I know it will be hard to see, I think it's important.
ReplyDeleteI cry everytime I see pictures like that. I am German and in school from like grade 7 on up until you graduate you hear and learn about the Holocaust. It is kind of something that follows you. The guilt that came from that was engrained into our culture for many years even though many of us have nothing to do with what happened.
ReplyDeleteAnd yet still today things like torture, face mutilation and humand trafficking.
But I think we can actually make a difference by being aware, by talking about it and by choosing carefully where to shop and what to eat.
Anywas... don't want to become too political. It's just something that stirrs my heart.
Thanks so much for sharing Kathleen!
Exactly what Francine said. Thanks for sharing this with us.
ReplyDeleteI'm really drawn to WWII history for some reason. It's fascinating and terrible and I don't know... just overwhelming. I visited Dachau on a trip to Germany several years ago, and was utterly humbled and saddened by the amount of suffering that had taken place there, and in camps all over the region during that time. Places like that feel almost alive to me, it's weird. So many people suffered and lost so much on that ground, it's like time can't erase it. I felt the same thing on the DDay beaches in Normandy, and in Gettysburg. Crazy. Anyway, it's cool you were able to visit and take in a bit of history. Can't wait to read about the rest of your trip!
ReplyDeleteRamona - I'm glad you bring that up because I was genuinely curious what the German attitude is today and if there are deep-seated issues of guilt and shame over what happened. I even had the thought about how my Grandpa was a Pearl Harbor survivor & a marine - it's something that is always talked about with pride. But what if your grandpa was a Nazi? Everyone wants to be proud of their family so how do you reconcile that sort of thing - especially when it's still so close to us.
ReplyDeleteKelsey - I wish I knew more about history and the wars we fought and why. And it's funny because when I think about wars like WWII I consider what the lack of communication and technology had to do with the escalation of terrible things like the Holocaust and even Japanese work camps in the states. We have an abundance of tools for communication these days - I don't see why war is ever necessary nowadays.
Kathleen, now that you've been to Auschwitz you and Jeremy should watch the documentary "Hitler's Children". My husband and I just watched it after it was recommended on a podcast we listen to. It is about the children and grandchildren of some of the famous Nazis--Himler, Goethe, etc. and how they deal with the legacy of their ancestors. It is incredibly well done and very moving. The most interesting story in my opinion was actually the grandson of the commandant of Auschwitz--his father was raised in that beautiful villa you saw just a few steps away from the horrors of Auschwitz.
ReplyDeleteI totally hear you on wanting to know more about history and the wars we've fought and why. I think it's so important to remember the lessons we (all humans, not just the US) have learned so we don't repeat them. Unfortunately, I think our technology and tools for communication have only changed the way we fight wars, and have increased the amount of damage we're able to do. Why we get so wrapped up in politics and power games I don't know... Seems to me our technology and tools could really go a long way if we applied them to things like hunger, homelessness, etc with the same fervor we use them to fight wars. You could spend your whole life trying to convince people of that... Anyway, speaking of the Japanese work camps in WWII... I'm from Seattle, those camps are a huge part of the history of the Pacific Northwest, but strangely I'd NEVER HEARD OF THEM until I read Snow Falling on Cedars in college. Which, interestingly, was banned from my high school for the minor sex scenes, but I think missing out on that history was far worse! I had no idea the atrocities of WWII reached all the way to my own backyard. I still can't believe that isn't taught as part of regional history in junior and high school! Scary.
ReplyDeleteMartha - Oh, I'll absolutely check that out. Thanks for the recommendation.
ReplyDeleteKelsey - After I wrote that comment I thought "Wow, I really went off on a tangent there." So I apologize! However, it seems like something you've given some thought to as well. And yeah, I think you're right. Gah, when I really start thinking about stuff like this I start to feel so hopeless about politics and even humanity in general.
And yes! I think I learned about the Japanese camps from that same book and was completely shocked that this isn't discussed more. And how bizarre that it isn't taught in your schools. Here in Oklahoma we definitely have a lot of state history involving the relocation of Native Americans and things like the Land Run - they're typically celebrated as a part of our heritage but I feel like they rarely discuss the atrocities that happened. I think the only way our next generation can change these things is if we stop sugar-coating all of it in our public school systems.
I visited the Dachau concentration camp as a side trip from Munich last fall and was surprised by how deeply and disturbingly the experience affected me. I had learned about concentration camps throughout grade school, but never knew what it would be like to actually visit a place where all of the mayhem took place.
ReplyDeleteWhen we left Munich, it was a beautiful, perfectly sunny, unseasonable warm September day. As soon as we stepped off of the train in Dachau, we were awaited with a sheath of fog. At times we literally couldn't even see ten feet in front of us. It was at least 10-15 degrees cooler there and the sun never peeked out.... Soon as we arrived back in Munich, warm and not a cloud in the sky. I'm not sure what I believe in but that just does not sound like a coincidence to me. Weird!!
I think that, given the opportunity, everyone should visit a concentration camp at some point in their lives. It's a completely depressing experience that really allows you to put things into perspective. And makes you want to go give all of your friends and family members a big hug.
Kahtleen, yes that is something that is difficult and it takes years and years and generations for that to heal and not be the defining thing about a culture. For us it was in 2006 when the Soccer World Cup was held in Germany there was a big step forward. I'm not into soccer at all but that summer something in our culture happened. Healing happened and people for the first time in my entire life have had something like a pride for their country and that was something really beautiful to watch and experience.
ReplyDeleteMy grandfather had to fight in the war and was imprisoned by the Russian army for a very long time. Whenever he would tell the story he would always stop talking at some point because he couldn't find the words to describe what must have happened at that prison camp and we never found out...
I just think it is of utter importance that in our schools they will keep teaching about that very specific time in history to make aware of what can happen and to warn of not letting that happen again.
maybe its cuz I'm already a blubbering mess today but this made me so sad. I mean it's a great thing to visit these places, really makes you realize you can't take your life for granted. the whole running in the rain thing made me laugh a little, I probably would have freaked out feeling like i was brought back to that time. gives me goose bumps.
ReplyDeletemaybe its cuz I'm already a blubbering mess today but this made me so sad. I mean it's a great thing to visit these places, really makes you realize you can't take your life for granted. the whole running in the rain thing made me laugh a little, I probably would have freaked out feeling like i was brought back to that time. gives me goose bumps.
ReplyDeleteWhat a powerful experience. Your photos are fantastic. When I visited Dachau with my high school history class, the weather was ominous, too. We walked through brick buildings containing incinerators. It's so hard to comprehend what that took place at this site. It was the saddest, eeriest place EVER. *shudder* Thanks so much for sharing! xo.
ReplyDeleteIncredible and moving pictures. I bet that was an intense experience. I went to Anne Frank's house in Amsterdam and was in tears the entire time.
ReplyDeleteIncredible and moving pictures. I bet that was an intense experience. I went to Anne Frank's house in Amsterdam and was in tears the entire time. I took a Holocaust Literature class as an undergrad and it was one of the best courses I've ever taken.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing. So many people run from these stories and this history because it's sad and painful, but life *is* sad and painful. And, as you mentioned, these horrible things continue happening.
ReplyDeleteThe photo of Birkenau was really affecting because I read a nonfiction book, Train in Winter this past year about women involved in the French Resistance, and that's where they were eventually sent. The book was absolutely amazing and taught me a lot I really didn't know about the French Occupation and Resistance as well as a different side to the work camps (the women were treated slightly better - but not much - than the Jews). The difference for them was they had one another and weren't yet broken.
Thanks for sharing these photos.
When we visited the American Cemetery and D-Day beaches in France, I was amazed at the number of schoolkids and wild teenagers screaming and playing. It felt so wrong, like we were kind of on hallowed ground. I would've been jarred by obnoxious schoolkids at the concentration camps too.
ReplyDeleteWow - this gave me chills just reading it! I'm surprised that the tourists seemed so clueless and frivelant the first Auschwitz - don't they realize the significance of where they're standing? I'm glad you got to go to the second Auschwitz - sounds like that one was a lot more meaningful and ominous almost. I think it's important to remember history like this so that we never repeat it.
ReplyDeleteI think the problem nowadays is not that people over here (I'm from Austria) still feel guilty or ashamed about what happened almost 70 years ago, but they feel ashamed what's happening at the moment. In Austria, but also in countries like France, Hungary,.. the right winged parties are more popular than ever, it's crazy and definitely something I am concerned and ashamed about... But the things which happened during Second world war are especially for the younger generations not so present any more...
ReplyDeleteStefanie V M - Wow, yes. I can absolutely relate to being ashamed of one's current government. With it being an election season in the US things are getting a bit out of control in the political arena.
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